Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Journal Excerpt {Halloween}


Sitting on a wooden bench, on the third floor of the Education Building at school, I felt compelled to write. I needed to get my thoughts down on paper, on anything really, but facebook just wouldn't do: I needed something momentarily private, something that I could stare at and meditate on for a good while before my next class. So here's my unedited heart, spilled out onto a single  sheet of notebook paper.
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 Think of the person that you love most in this world. Who is she/he? Now picture this scenario: There's a person who's always trying to make your loved one look bad, hurts those that your loved one holds dear. That person invites you to his/her party. Do you go? This is how I view everything—God is my Father, the one who's always been there for me. Why would I celebrate something that's used to hurt His heart? When you don't have a relationship with God everything you see is {rules, religion, more rules...Why this? Why that?} When you have a direct relationship with God the questions and answers no longer matter because you would drop anything in a minute for the one who chose to give it all for you. It doesn't matter what everyone else does. Who cares? Be different and don't be ashamed of it! I choose not to celebrate halloween, not because of the candy or the costumes, but because of what this day represents. While parents send their kids trick-or-treating, there are thousands of people making sacrifices to the devil on this day. I don't know about you, but I'm not gonna give Satan and his followers the satisfaction of knowing that I'm at the party of the one who hates my Best Friend! Tonight is Worship and Movie Night at my house. Amen to that!


Ponderings:
  • People want to come as close as they can to the line without crossing it. How far can we get? How much can we get away with before it's labeled as "wrong." Forget the world and fix your eyes on God.
  • It doesn't matter how much you are forced to do what's right, because until you encounter the Living God and receive a revelation, everything will seem like a pain transformed into a rule book {Look with your eyes wide open}.

I choose to have this attitude today:
(Joshua 24:14-15) “So fear the Lord and serve him wholeheartedly. Put away forever the idols your ancestors worshiped when they lived beyond the Euphrates River and in Egypt. Serve the Lord alone. But if you refuse to serve the Lord, then choose today whom you will serve. Would you prefer the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates? Or will it be the gods of the Amorites in whose land you now live? But as for me and my family, we will serve the Lord.”

Friday, October 26, 2012

Growing In Intimacy



Intimateassociated in close personal relations, characterized by a warm friendship, private and cozyan association, knowledge, or understanding arising from a close personal connection.

Shhhh...silence everything. Quiet all the noise. Get back to that place of pressing in and sensitivity. Once again, or maybe for the first time, forming a personal relationship with the Lord where you get to know God deeper and deeper as you get down on your knees and pray, laugh, and bring to life old and new conversations. This should be a time when pending thoughts and dreams that are sketched in your heart find themselves interconnecting and flowing through a pen onto paper. The cobwebs are blown off of journals and that cozy corner is embraced once more. Intimacy. The mere pronunciation of this word utters wholeness and drawing near. I picture two becoming one, loving another slowly, and the sharing of private thoughts. Lines no longer matter so there are no boundaries because it is a pure relationship worth more than gold.

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If I had to put words to such a relationship Psalm 63 fits my heart's voice perfectly.

(Psalm 63:1-8) O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better than life itself; how I praise you! I will praise you as long as I live, lifting up my hands to you in prayer. You satisfy me more than the richest feast. I will praise you with songs of joy. I lie awake thinking of you, meditating on you through the night. Because you are my helper, I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely. 

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To grow in intimacy we must first begin. Here are a few tips on how to let your relationship blossom with the Lord so it can become a constant overflow of Worship, love, and intimacy.

{1} Pray. Little by little start pouring out your heart to God, abandoning any fears or insecurities, so that you learn how to get out your feelings. Hand over the good, the bad, and everything in between to The Lord, knowing that He simply longs to hear your voice as much and more than you want to hear His.

{2} Converse. Throughout your day talk with God. He's your friend. If you've never done this before then it'll be just like meeting a stranger only to realize that with time and many words later that stranger becomes a friend. Don't feel crazy because like His word says, God goes with you. Whether you're in your car, in the restroom, or at the mall talk to God. Include Him in the big and small things because He cares.

{3} Make Time. Having a relationship with God and making time for that is awesome but there comes a crucial moment when the door must close. A moment of privacy and silence where it's just God and you as one. No interruptions or distractions because there are things that are on God's heart that He wants to share with you and things that you need to say as well. Learn to make time for all these things: prayer, Bible reading, and conversation. It won't always be easy or perfect but starting off your day even with a simple prayer in which you offer God your schedule so that He can take over your day and align all that needs aligning.

{4} Get into the Word. The best way to naturally get to know God is by reading the Bible because there you will learn what God likes, dislikes, what makes Him laugh, cry, and you will discover the true character of the one who loved you first. Before doing this pray so that God can show you the things that you do not know and so that what appears to be intricately difficult will be plain as day to you. When you begin to do this God will start revealing new things to you through His word, a new lifesong that will direct you and transform your way of thinking. Meditate on God's word by breaking it down and relating with it. 


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May your relationship with God grow each and every day, as each season in your life changes, so that your ears become more sensitive to the Lord's voice.

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Worship Freely Tunes {4}


Another lovely Friday. In all reality I think that we all can admit to having some crazy, off-the-rocker, tiring days. Well...what better than some great Worship music to relax our souls and turn our frowns upside down, right? The song I chose for this week is pretty new and pretty awesome. It features one of my favorite Worshipers, Steffany Frizzell, and earns 10 billion stars on my chart. I love these "type" of songs that take us deeper and deeper into what true Worship looks like through our Father's eyes: A closer and continuously growing relationship.

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Closer- Bethel Live (ft. Steffany Frizzell)

Friday, October 19, 2012

There's A Reason Behind Every Season



{Seeds of Joy. Blessings. An overflow. Love, endless love.}

This is exactly how I describe what God has placed in my hands. It's everything. In the midst of  terrible thunderstorms seeing a gorgeously striking sunset painted by the finger of God made me literally feel calm in the midst of a storm. My Sister in Christ, who also happens to be one of my bestest friends, and I hopped in her car and drove off on the highway toward our friend's church. When I first got the phone call to go lend a hand from my Psalmist School teacher I honestly admit that I wanted to stay home so bad to do some homework and spend some nice quiet time but I decided to do something radical, something bold, something so unheard of: consult God. I fell to my knees and then slowly twisted over and clutched both of my legs, resembling a fetal position. Whenever I do this it's mostly because I just need to talk to God, my friend. I asked Him whether or not He thought I should go, I talked some more, waited, sang a little song, and silently listened. I wasn't waiting to hear an audible voice. I was waiting to listen with my heart's ears. I was patiently waiting for God's peace. A few days before all of this took place I was prophesied to by a very anointed and amazing prophet from Indiana. I got my little audio souvenir for keeps. What came to mind after asking the Lord what He thought of me going was a brief small portion of all the prophetic word given to me, "Get ready for some new seasons. Seasons of going about." If you knew me, then you would know how much I love my house. I wouldn't call myself an introvert, but I definitely love my alone time when I can catch up on things I need to do and want to do. With school, driving off in the middle of the day seemed impossible to me, but I just told God that whatever it was I was willing. Some things never change. When God says "go" it's a "I better get going." To make long story short...I was willing to mop and sweep while God pushed me up to the altar to Worship Him with my voice. I love how fun and tricky my sweet Holy Spirit is...He knows very well when and where to use me. That's what I've been called to do, to Worship the Lord with my very life and with every ounce of breath. I love it. I had a great time with the girls, singing inside of church as well as outside in the car while the rain danced away. Laughter, we all need to just belt out our awkward screeches and let loose with some good friends. Those awesome friends who pray with you, share the same vision with you, and chow down on some yummy snacks by your side. When God says "go!" obey and He'll take care of the rest. Always be willing by extending your hands out to the the Lord and be prepared to serve others. When you are faithful in the small things God will reward you with bigger and better things that will require much more dedication and responsibility. I've learned this in the many seasons of my young life and I don't regret any minute of it.

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On another note...I finished my fast on Monday!!! Instantly I saw the hand of God in my life. The day I finished was the same day that I started something new. My mom and I were planning on seeing a nutritionist when we actually met with a Doctor who deals with Naturopathic Medicine. She was the sweetest lady and turned out to be Christian. I loved seeing all the shiny, wooden, and engraved crosses on her wall. Only God can arrange time so perfectly. It's not a coincidence that on the same day I finished my 21 day Daniel fast my appointment was set and made. God is more than good. The transition from fruits and veggies to my new healthy diet is enjoyable. At any other moment I know I could never be doing the things that I'm doing now. As Christians we've got to get fired up and passionate about keeping our body's temple spiritually and naturally healthy. I love it. You best believe:

(1 Corinthians 9:24-27) Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every stepI am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it shouldOtherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.

Spiritually this portion of the word is profound but naturally I also know that Paul must have been fit to walk miles and miles to preach the gospel. Spiritually he had to train his body for the amazing calling on his life but naturally he also had to prepare for the long journey ahead. Are we fully prepared for what God has called us to do? Can we be of service to God unhealthy, sick, or dead? Harsh I know but this is my reality. I had a choice to make. I chose to change and to let God just work with me in this season so that He, the ultimate teacher, could show me how to take care of my temple. Because when we do things in the natural you better believe it altars the spiritual realm. Consistency and dedication in the natural cause the same effect in the spiritual. This is what I have been learning in this new season and I am so thankful for it. My mind cannot fathom and cannot imagine the road ahead but I am still clinging to the one who designed the road. Be encouraged and more than anything be blessed.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Fasting And Confirmation



Ten days!!! Today is the tenth day on my Daniel Fast and can I just say that I feel amazing! I feel, feel, feel God moving! I reached this life-changing point in my spiritual walk where God confronted me lovingly to say that He wants to give me more freedom than I already have on a platform in public as well as off a platform in the quiet and secret. Let's face it ladies and gents...when we feel insecure because of our weight we just can't jump as high as we want to or face public situations with the proper authority and confidence. God wants to take His children out of that "false-contemptment" mind set and move them into an active lifestyle. I feel stronger spiritually and physically thanks to prayer, the Word of God, and exercise. Though my flesh wants to collapse from exhaustion at times I continue toward the finish line and declare the blood of Jesus over myself each day. I have inherited my Dad's unfailing strength. If my tummy grumbles I'm almost immune to cravings. To me this is God confirming how much He wanted me to trust Him on this. Fasting and prayer are two important keys for the children of God that will unlock doors and make the gates of heaven burst open.

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Right now I'm reading in the second Book of Samuel and what is making me relate and meditate is this:

{Background Story: Saul's son, King after his father's death, has also been killed. David has been anointed as King and is going up against a tribe who inhabits Jerusalem.}


(2 Samuel 5:1-3) Then all the tribes of Israel went to David at Hebron and told him, “We are your own flesh and blood. In the past, when Saul was our king, you were the one who really led the forces of Israel. And the Lord told you, ‘You will be the shepherd of my people Israel. You will be Israel’s leader.’” So there at Hebron, King David made a covenant before the Lord with all the elders of Israel. And they anointed him king of Israel.

(2 Samuel 5:6-7) David then led his men to Jerusalem to fight against the Jebusites, the original inhabitants of the land who were living there. The Jebusites taunted David, saying, “You’ll never get in here! Even the blind and lame could keep you out!” For the Jebusites thought they were safe. But David captured the fortress of Zion, which is now called the City of David.

(2 Samuel 5:10-12) And David became more and more powerful, because the Lord God of Heaven’s Armies was with himThen King Hiram of Tyre sent messengers to David, along with cedar timber and carpenters and stonemasons, and they built David a palace. And David realized that the Lord had confirmed him as king over Israel and had blessed his kingdom for the sake of his people Israel. 


Whenever God speaks to us He will always send confirmation. God spoke over David the plans of royalty and leadership that He had over him and thus, activated David's true purpose. Many years later David comes to be handed the position and responsibility of King of Israel. For more than seven years David knew the plans that the Lord had for Him but during his "waiting period" he ruled over what God gave him for that particular time and season. He did it exceptionally, loved and adored by many. This is what God is showing me right this very second. The palace being built confirmed to David what the Lord had activated many, many years ago. During this "waiting period" God is calling us to reign over that which is momentary until He hands us our true destiny and ministry. Keep on moving forward my friends as I will do also. God has spoken over your life and will fulfill each and every promise. The confirmation is coming! 
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